It’s Mother’s Day! I have had almost 1 hour to myself this morning. This is a huge deal these days as our two small children are home full-time due to this global health pandemic. As a Stay-Home Parent of almost 7 years, I’ve become accustomed to yoga pants and pony tails as my work attire. […]
The last time I tried to write on this blog was almost 2 months ago. I have the draft to prove it. The time before that, 6 months ago. Before that…1 year. This sacred space that holds my thoughts, feelings, dreams…this space that holds me – I have abandoned. I abandoned my writing because I […]
A friend of mine from high school died last week. We’d lost touch over the past 13 years, but we kept in touch via social media. I watched him get married and have three little boys with a woman whom he appeared to adore. And then one day I noticed that he was sick. Instead […]
Last night our kids woke us up four separate times. To eat. And to be soothed from nightmares. We have two children, so in the middle of the night, as I am trying to fall back to sleep after the second or third time of waking, I often ask myself, ‘How?! HOW do people with […]
This morning I discovered that my laptop fits in my diaper bag. That’s right. My son is sleeping soundly in his car seat below my table at our local Starbucks as I type and sip my coffee. (My coffee that I ordered ahead of time in our daughter’s drop-off line for school.) And because I […]
This space feels impossible to fill right now. I stare at the screen and am flooded with too many memories. Too many moments have passed. My heart aches with the anniversaries that have come and gone. Small victories that have given me life in the darkest of times over the past few months. Do I […]
I’ve missed my blog dearly. I often think about sitting down in front of this screen and pouring my heart out…but then I am yanked in 20 different directions (sometimes at the EXACT same time) and my thoughts about writing join with my other daydreams. What do I dream about these days? Sleep…and for my […]
To my girl. We are less than a week away from welcoming your baby brother into our family. While I am elated to be done with pregnancy and to meet the little guy that’s been growing inside…I am simultaneously overcome with sadness that you will no longer be my baby. You will always be my […]
As I sit here looking visibly near the end of pregnancy, my whole body aches to be done with growing a human. To date, it has been 33 months of actively trying to bring this tiny person into our lives. Nearly three years. Some of our best friends have children turning three-years-old in the coming […]
To my son. We met in a storm. Our introduction came earlier than expected. The moment I saw your tiny heartbeat was preceded by an hour where I was sure I’d lost you. I was sure I’d never know you. Our emergency ultrasound…that’s where you became real to me. On a warm September afternoon in […]
"Be brave. Without bravery, you will never know the world as it longs to be known. Without bravery your life will remain small - far smaller than you probably wanted your life to be."
-Elizabeth Gilbert
'One thing you can't do if you want to be LOVED...is HIDE.'
-Glennon Doyle Melton