One year ago I sat down on my computer and figured out how to start a blog. One year ago, I decided that if I were going to do the scary thing (IVF), then I was going to document it all. At first, it was for me. And my husband. Then, I opened it up […]
Yesterday, the baby growing inside of me turned 12 weeks in gestational age. I am pregnant! I had about one week where I was overflowing with joy. Let’s go back to that week… The morning that I was to find out whether or not I was pregnant, I cried for a half hour. My husband […]
Two nights ago, I picked a fight with my husband. Or maybe my hormones did? What I wanted to convey to him was that I needed more support. I wanted him to make this waiting easier. The fear of the pain became too much for me and I wanted someone to blame. Really, I needed […]
Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise! Our Transfer went smoothly and it was a beautiful moment shared between me and my husband. We were given a picture of our little one and told it was already hatching and looking for a uterus and then we got to see it in real-time on a large screen as our […]
It has felt like smooth sailing on the IVF front in our household. We have had only positive feedback about my ultrasounds and blood work. It has been wonderful. We have a Transfer in 3 days. I’ve been contemplating for days what to write on here. There are so many feelings. Mostly, I feel unbelievably […]
Today is ‘FET Day 1’. That is Day 1 of our Frozen Embryo Transfer cycle. It is the last cycle before pregnancy. The Last Act. It is two weeks long. Two weeks from tomorrow, I will be ‘PUPO.’ That is Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise. Our embryo will be safely inside my body. Two weeks. My […]
In the past two weeks I’ve learned of two family members who are pregnant…again. One with her second child, the other with her fourth. Another family member gave birth to her second child yesterday. I dropped a friend off at her clinic for her Embryo Transfer…for (hopefully!) her second child. And I watched her give […]
Holy hiatus. It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve been in this space. And A LOT has happened in the weeks that have passed since I last wrote here. First, I will blame what I now know to be ‘brain fog.’ Second, I have been preparing for our daughter’s 4th birthday and have used […]
Sike. It’s never over when you’re going through IVF. However, the wait is over with regards to the question, ‘How many embryos do we have to transfer?’ And the answer came to me via my cell phone while I was on a walk with our sweet dog, Avery. I yanked my earbuds from my head […]
We have 3 embryos!!! As I type this, our three little embryos are frozen in our clinic and their biopsied cells are being sent to Natera (a laboratory in California) for genetic testing. We have one 5AB embryo and two 5BB embryos. All three are considered really good quality as of now. I’m still learning […]
"Be brave. Without bravery, you will never know the world as it longs to be known. Without bravery your life will remain small - far smaller than you probably wanted your life to be."
-Elizabeth Gilbert
'One thing you can't do if you want to be LOVED...is HIDE.'
-Glennon Doyle Melton